all the cards left to play

do you often make up arbitrary rules for yourself? last night on the way to the laundry room downstairs there was a flier in the hall and i told myself if it was still there when i walked back, i'd pick it up. it was there.. and i alllmost walked past it, but i picked it up.

sometimes when i'm having a hard time getting out of the shower i count to ten and then shut the water off immediately. and i'm a chronic ovethinker so lots of times i think of the exact words i want to use to say something uncomfortable to someone but i don't know when to bring it up.. so i count to three and then just spit it out.

i think it's really interesting to find out what makes people do certain things. i think we can almost always accept all outcomes when we know someone's rationalle behind something.

random news: a 6-inch cold cut combo in DC is $3.69, just like at home.
there's apparently a creperie right down by where i work.
i might get to see my pretend fiance tomorrow morning!
miriam is making caaaake.
i wore my dress backwards today because the real front was too low cut for work but it was passable when turned around. i kept it a secret alll day when finally i spilled the beans to jamil, who thought i was ridiculous for doing it/telling him.