do what you feel

oh, crushes. i won't tell you who or where or how or anything. but i'm the kind of crusher that i always want to be around them all the time and know everything and overdose. i didn't know that that wasn't how everyone did it because ALLLL of my relationships have been like that. i guess i've just gotten lucky that everyone i've dated hasn't freaked that i get mildly obsessed and creepy about it, and they're usually equally excited.
although, can we all agree that talking all the time and never wanting to be apart is the ideal way to begin a relationship?

anyway there are many reasons why i can't do that with this one, so i've tried doing what i think most people do which is stay cool and not fawn. but it's almost impossible for me to do that. this trying to purposely not talk to him business is just making me want to talk more. so. who knows.

good day today. i need rain boots. my comfy shoes aren't waterproof at all.
and bright apple green umbrellas with pink elephants are far better than black.